The title is a line from The CrucibleSo I thought I'd explain myself a little. You all hear me preaching love and joy but I assure you, I am human too and I do have things that I need help with. I don't think you guys have really heard much about my life and who I am so I guess it's my turn. This is not a rant, it's a story of my feelings written to my journal. Feel free to follow along :]
I guess I'll start with my last picture. There's really not much to say though. There are just some people that, when they walk in the room, they make me smile and open up the day. I love that feeling and I often think it's one of the strongest things that pushes me onward on a bad day. I just wish there was a way I could tell these people how much they mean.
The last few months I have felt some of the most difficult physical and emotional pains I think I've felt (don't get me wrong though, I have a wonderful life and fully appreciate it). The physical is my doing but it's for something I've needed my whole life so it doesn't bother me that much. The emotional is a different story. I've become paranoid about people and have to analyze every bit of them. Not in a way that's judging. It's to understand why they don't see what I do and realize all the unnecessary things they do. I've just become frustrated instead of accepting them. I'm working on that though. I guess I need to trace things backwards and find a point where I am comfortable with me and everyone else.
What's really been bothering me though is that I have no more sanctuary to get away from people and school and issues with people at school. Even from family. Every private place I had is now gone except for my mind. There are ears and eyes everywhere and I feel like I want to just break down. It's my fault too. (And I don't mean you, Caroline, i'm glad your on here :])But I led others to these places whether I meant to or not and now I feel like a television set to provide entertainment. What I feel is just completely broken and exposed. Which brings me back to my first point. There are some people that bring me back together when they walk in the room. And yet they don't even know it.
Lately, no matter how much my day sucks, I go to bed feeling happy. I don't know why or how it happens but it feels like this dark nothingness has been lifted of my eyes like they were shut. I'm really grateful for that. So this was not meant to be an angry or sad entry although I am a little of both. It was really to just get all of these feelings down.
I'd like to finish on a more cheerful subject though :] . My life will not be complete until I have taken Hang gliding lessons and own my own to fly. So I hope you guys join me someday. Flying is my dream sharing it with some of my best friends would make it all the more amazing
So I don't know. Have fun I guess :]

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nothing can be fully understood, not even the simplest of things. not even this
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nothing can be fully understood, not even the simplest of things. not even this
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If you click this, you will be devoured. No Joke. No, it's not a link to my profile. I'm telling you NOT to click it. I WILL eat you. [link]
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nothing can be fully understood, not even the simplest of things. not even this
...you prolly don't remember meee.... buuut I'm Skellington from TLKFAA.
Lol.
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YES I remember you C:
I have to watch you now!
and thanks for the watch <3
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If you click this, you will be devoured. No Joke. No, it's not a link to my profile. I'm telling you NOT to click it. I WILL eat you. [link]
Lol, you're welcome. ^-^
So how've you been!?
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I've been good! This school year has been a little tough but I'm taking each day as they come. It's been insanely busy though :[
How about you?!
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If you click this, you will be devoured. No Joke. No, it's not a link to my profile. I'm telling you NOT to click it. I WILL eat you. [link]
Lol.
I've been somewhere inbetween. 1-2 weeks I have no free time then for the next month I have nothing, lol.
It all depends.
xD
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